"Baby, it's been a long day. Things ain't going my way..."
Ray LaMontagne is one of my favorite musicians (among many). Not many people really know who he is, but many know the song "You Are the Best Thing." I let my students listen to music in the classroom from time to time and sometimes we listen to my Ray LaMontagne station on Pandora (lots of oldies and calm music plays on this station)- so my students know the song now, too.
Over the past few weeks, I have been able to relate to those opening lines a little too well. The stresses of life have piled on my plate like I pile on Chinese food at a buffet...which, if you know me, is a very heavy plate!
With the struggle of learning to juggle life, the stresses that come with it, and learning how to put a smile on my face in the classroom despite what's going on the inside, I have seen the brighter side of some things. Last week, I had one of the worst days I think I have ever had. It wasn't even the kind of day where you thought you could just go to bed and start over the next day ; It was the kind of day you couldn't wait to get out of, but also the kind in which you had a lot tough things to say and a lot of messes to clean up after saying those things. It really was a wretched day.
My beautiful students were especially amazing that day. As much as I tried to hide that I was carrying a very heavy burden, I think they knew Miss Laura wasn't as bubbly as usual. They are so in tune to what is going on around them! Well, my students certainly didn't waste their spidey-sense like abilities! Not only was my class' behavior excellent, but I got extra hugs from my students that day, sweet notes and lots of smiles. They loved on me when I didn't have anyone else at the time to count on. I did not have to ask them for this encouragement, they simply showed up and showed off their wonderful encouragement skills!
I think this is one of the perks of having such a small classroom. We all signed a classroom promise at the beginning of the year. In that promise we state to show one another grace. I try to facilitate an environment in which my students know the expectations, but also know the why behind those expectations. I want to teach them things that will follow them throughout their lives- things like what loving one another looks like, the character of Christ, the authority of God and His Word and that we cannot do it on our own. I always tell my students that I am human, too. They know that I fall and fail. We don't go into detail, but it is important to me that they know that I do not have it easy and I am not perfect- we are all in the same boat. I do not believe it is my responsibility to model perfection, but it is my responsibility to model the grace and mercy that God has shown me. Needless to say, I was simply beaming after seeing my students step up to the plate last week and show me grace and mercy on one of the worst days I think I have ever had!
This is one of the reasons I love teaching: Even on the worst day, my students make it all worth it. Whether they know it or not, they are the best thing!
Love,
Miss Laura